quicksand.

Oh, a blog..

That's all I can say of that. I love to write and I love to think so this will be fun! I used to have a blog, but I was an odd child back then. Even if no one reads this I think it will be a good thing to do with all the changes coming up as i move out and start college. It's weird to think that almost everyone I know has already been there, done that, but I'm glad I have them all to guide me and show me what to do! I move into the dorm in 17 days. I'm the second person in my extended family to go to college. Needless to say they're all very proud of me and I hope I don't let them down. I have a feeling that college is going to be more than I expected but I think I'll do fine. I just can't let the little things catch up to me. I still can't even picture myself there, it's so strange. I'm really glad that God has been so faithful in so many ways this summer, from getting a spot on work crew to finding ways to pay for my first semester, it's been truely amazing and I'm so ungrateful still. I've struggled a lot this summer and instead of searching for answers to things that will never make sense I should have been looking to God for direction and comfort when so many things are changing. Looking back, I've wondered away from God this summer and I'm tellin' you, it's soooo scary! It gives me a gross feeling in my stomach. I just hate seeing how far I came from last year and that I could easily go back to that without the right people in my life. I'm so lucky to have the few awesome friends I do have and that we keep each other going in the right direction.

ACK! enough of the deep stuff!

I solved my rubik's cube in 2:40! THAT'S MY NEW RECORD! (:

Now I'm off to my first college life hang out.!